July 05, 2004
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“You always expect the worst.”
“No, no, no, not at all, you’re hearing me all wrong. That’s not what I meant.”
“Not just now, generally speaking.”
"It’s not that I expect the worst, it’s just that I just prefer the present to the future. I like to have a good idea of what’s ahead."
“You’re afraid of change.”
“Ok, sure, I usually like things the way they are.”
“That explains things.”
“What do you mean? You mean this rut?”
“No, not that. Just the mood. ”
“Yes. The mood is strange. Usually I’m such an optimist.”
“An optimist? Hah!”
“I am an optimist.”
“What are you optimistic about?”
“I expect to die happy.”
“Die happy? That’s pessimistic.”
“No, No. It’s something to look forward too.”
“To death?”
“To a happy death, surrounded by loved ones and in bed.”
“Uh huh.”
“A comfortable bed, a quilt with some memories attached to it pulled up around my neck, the warm hand of my beloved on my brow. "
“Can I ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“In this death scene…”
“Uh huh.”
“What’s the weather like.”
“It’s raining, a real downpour.”
“See… rain. You’re a pessimist.”
“Rain isn’t pessimistic, it’s gloomy.”
“You’re a gloomy optimist then.”
“A gloptimist?”
“Yes”
“Ok then.”
“Ok.”
“That movie was terrible.”
:”Yeah, but not as bad a dodgeball.”
“Oh god no.”
“Are you going to finish that?”
“No, I was saving it for you.”
